Physic Fair adventure pT2 Meditation

hehe I still believe in balance. That whatever everything is made up of there is always the same amount, which means to get something, something must be taken, like scales I guess.. just in short balance. That's my opinion anyway ;)

As I think I have written elsewhere on my blog, I can't stop thinking, can never shut my damm brain down and have been thinking of maybe getting a book to learn to meditate, don't like my chances but have to try ;)
So when we read on the program that there would be a "meditation session", we hung around to see what it was like, maybe teach me a few things practically, while you can learn anything from a book it's still nice and easier to see it first hand and ask questions.

So here we are sitting in a little seminar room with only about 10 other people (it was late in the afternoon and most everyone else had gone home). We sat right down the back against what my husband wanted, I said I wanted to be near there door for a speedy getaway of I had to hehe

In walks this portly happy faced man, he was upbeat and well just seemed like a happy man.
He asked if everyone had had a good day to which we all said yeah yes and mmm, he said it felt great all the positive energy etc in the place which we all agreed to again.

He then asks us who would like something new in their lives to which of course we all said yes, I assumed he just meant like a new interest etc. I mean who doesn't?
He then says that he was going to try something different this afternoon and would we all like to try it, he called it "Manifestation meditation", which I took to mean " well will mediate in a way that will let you see a guide or spirit",haha I was wrong, he then said, "who knows the difference between goals and desires", which was went through, which you all know anyway, and he asked us do we all have a desire, which of course I do, to create a happy and healthy home and life for my family and friends, to do what I feel is right and always be honest.
Well he meant a desire of a different kind, he said you all must want something.
And that is when the alarm bells went off, I put up my hand when he paused for breath but he seemed to be in a hurry now, I was going to argue with him about balance, yin and yang, about how you have to take from something to give to something else. and well hell it's just bad karma to want selfish things from the universe.
But I didn't, I sat there with my eyes open while he was going through this spiel with everyone, I think I must have had a look of total disgust on my face, he prolly had no idea why.

As we were waling out he was in front and I made sure to say loud enough for him to hear
though directed at my husband, things like "you didn't wish for anything selfish did you" and "you shouldn't have done it, you know that you can't give to something without taking from somewhere else" and "you know how I believe in balance and that you shouldn't....".

I feel bad now for making the guy feel self conscience as I believe that he had good intentions, he just wanted to "do something nice for everyone", and maybe had no idea how bad it is.
I mean the majority of people a brought up, not just by parents but the whole world we live in, to believe that the main goal in life to to amass as much money and material possessions as you can because that makes you a better person, and that greed is good.
I bet all these people also go to church and know the seven deadly sins by heart.
Anyway, I'll be stopping the preaching here because I guess I am just done trying to teach and I hate long posts.

Physic Fair adventure pT 1 Mediums

This is back from June 2008. A cross post from my old blog again.
I have to add that I believe that a whole lot of mediums are for real, but I also belive that there are even more that are not and also that "think" they are, but are really just extra observant or sensitive, but in actual fact do not talk to spirits.

Our Sunday this weekend we decided to spend the day at a physic fair, you know mind spirit and body type thing. We actually heard about it from a link I am on the mailing list to, a medium who I thought was really good.

I am a firm believer in spirits, but also understand that not everything you see is a spirit but more likely left over energy from a bad death, anyway in short for this purpose I believe.

I like to also believe there are people that can talk to the spirits, I know I have dreams of people past that seem so real, and all the things I see, hear and smell. Smell is a big one, you can usually smell something first, if you can't all you will see is a quick flint by, but what I don't get is sometimes they are shadows and sometimes like sparks... anyway I guess that will be another story so I can keep this one short.. somewhat anyway hehe

Ok, I have been wanting to go to more of these shows because I don't understand what whoever it is, is trying to tell me through all the funny numbers and stuff I see, so I am interested, and I figure that if they can't get through to me with the numbers if I go to these things one might be able to get through to the medium to me to let me know wtf is going on. So I like going to these things...
I have been looking for a time when my husband would be able to take me and checking out each and every show, and one thing I noticed was that this same group of mediums was always showing together, which I thought nothing of, you know, just a group of like minded people showing their gifts together.

So Sunday we were able to go, it was a great event lots of shows and information, stalls also it was entertaining. However I am really starting to wonder about if what they do is real, I know spirits, the soul is, but can they really talk to them?

Why I changed?... well it is my belief that the spirit or "soul" is just a tiny part of a huge conscience all interlinked together, each time we are put on a different plane or "earth" we are put there to learn things about ourselves and others and to "grow" spiritually so we can step to the next level.
Two of the different mediums there on Sunday said things to the effect that the spirits didn't know everything, whereas I thought from reading lots of "return from death experiences", that you are shown the mysteries of the universe, you have a universal knowledge, that what which you are to learn each time you are sent to earth or where ever is to do with spirit, not knowledge.
Of course they said that when they returned to their bodies that all that they knew was lost, so they can't bring it back with them, but either way it was there and these mediums were saying it's not.
So who to believe, people that have been there and have stories that are too alike to discount, all from different religious backgrounds and beliefs, or someone that can so easily speak to the spirits?
And here is the 2nd questioning for me, It was easier to notice in so many mediums and shows the same day, but the people that the mediums picked seemed to be the same people, just different rooms and different mediums. I mean we could put that down to that they were just bossy ghosts that didn't say all they had to the first time and wanted another shot, I mean who knows, just because I question dosen't mean I do not believe, but I do question.

I think I might have to go to a few more but take proper notes this time and really concentrate.

Jennifer Love Hewitt doesn't just act interest in paranormal

The actress asked Firehouse owner Mick Houston about Eastern State Penitentiary across the street, and he came through with details about the landmark.

She was intrigued, so he called an ESP staffer.

Fran Dolan, the site manager, took them around for an after-hours tour.

It's neat that she is actually interested in ghosts :)

I did not see this when I first looked at the picture (please click on text to be taken to original story and picture), but there is an orb just to the top right.

I only saw this because of this website here: True Ghost Babe
But, the picture they show I can't really see anything, I only saw this orb/dust spot which is above.
I have blown it up and circled it.
I personally think it is just dust or a reflection, I don't get a spooky feeling at all from this picture, but that is just me :)

Dogs barking at what? - old video

This is old, but it gives me the spooks. Just posting for safe keeping to show friends :)

Trying to learn to meditate. 1

I have had the book borrowed for awhile now. Just haven't really started.
I guess what helped me along was reading a blog I follow about animal communication and the bird of the day was a goose and the goose is a symbol to follow through to move forward.

I know I haven't been posting as much, but that is ok, because it is not a big u-buet blog, never meant it to be... however I was getting a little freaked out because my "numbers" have been happening MUCH more frequently.
I mean they scare me to begin with, but this last week it has been everywhere I look.. like everywhere.

So here I started trying to learn to meditate.

I am reading and working through a wonderful book called Learn to Meditate by David Fontana.

I call it great, because while it has background for understanding of the things, it doesn't have all the crap that goes along with a whole lot of meditation books.

The book goes through different stages of learning, through exercises given to do and text to explain different things.

I have only just started, and because I don't want to give all the book away, won't be detailed in the exercises.

----I suppose I have been bad, because in a total of 40 minutes I did 2. It did not say how long to spend on each one, and me.. being me.. wanted to race forward.

The first one I had to basically watch what my head was doing, thoughts were supposed to race past...The only thoughts I really had were trying to keep my eyes shut.
I don't get it, aren't your eyes supposed to be closed when relaxed? Every time I relaxed my eyes they wanted to open.

The second one I had to add a little phrase to what I was doing in the first. This was pretty freaky.. my hands felt like they were burning, but I kept having thoughts of catching energy? LOL I know strange right?
I also could see like fluid movements, like when you put ink in water and it swirls around gently, They weren't real colourful, actually pretty dark, at one stage there was a bright yellow, but just got drowned again in the dark colours.
When I say dark, I suppose I mean more bright colours but in the shade.. if that explains it?
When I was seeing this my thoughts were travelling inside myself.. and kept looking for the middle of the whirlpool, like a spiral.. it was there in the middle but so so tiny, but I knew it was there?


Well that's it for today, There are some exercise to do while just everyday living, so to speak.

I hope I don't sound to mental.. or crazy, if anyone comes across this. But I really wanted to be honest, that way when I look back I can judge properly.. or maybe.. hopefully hehe